Monday, August 21, 2017

journal in June

June 2,2017
Fresno zoo today. These girls are getting old way too quickly. These sweet parts of them will be gone so fast. Sia is in her baby mama phase. Carrying a baby around with a purse too, if she can handle it, saying "heavy heavy." I love it. She is so smart. 
I narrate my day to the girls a lot. Often I will say what I need in certain moments and Noelle listens to it all. She will jump up (even if she is relaxing on the couch) and go grab whatever it is I need. Gwinna has learned this about Noelle too and takes advantage at times. It makes me think of my sweet little Lil sister. Sorry I was such a bossy cow Lils. "Turn off the light...you're closer!" ðŸ˜¬ I love you!!!
I asked Noelle where her favorite place to be is. Her answer: the temple. ðŸ˜­
Sweet girl. 
My Gwinna girl is getting antsy, needs some school, some friends, some principals office time;) hehe. Not really but..."hey it could happen."
She is so smart and beautiful and wants to help with every part of living. Her Tia Stephanie describes her as a sour patch kid. There are moments that she is the sweetest most helpful awesome chick and in an instant it can turn around and she will be unhappy and going against anything you say...🙄
Sometimes just to do it, it seems. 
She loves reading with her Grandma. When she laughs with her sisters it brightens up my whole day. 
Back to zoo day. 
Sias favorite animal?? A puppy being walked around! Haha. She was pretty stoic the whole time but right when she saw that sweet dog she perked up, pointing "puppy! puppy!"
Noelle has informed me that for her birthday she wants a hello kitty ring, finding dory necklace and a hatchimal?! She also wants a pumpkin cake decorated with a Joy figurine on top and all kinds of frosting creations too! A flower, rainbow, the face must be frosting and of course lots of sprinkles! Had to note this;)

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

journals in July

July 22, 2017
At the moment life seems to be very much insane and stressful. I'm trying to wrap my mind and heart around the fact that I will soon be sending our first baby Gwinna to kindergarten! She is loud and wild and our daily life will feel so different without her. I feel sick. We just found out sias doctor did not get the whole spitz nevus out. I can't even talk about that. Too upset, too anxious and angry that we have to do it all over when she was such a rockstar the first time. Again sick! Sia also has cavities that she has to go under for. Ugh. I know I need to quit breastfeeding but really feel I can't handle that and neither can she in this moment. 
THANKFULLY Noelle and Gwinna have no cavities ðŸ¤— 
In the midst of this I know what I have to do and it is my go to. Thank goodness for truth, for my savior for the gospel for gratitude. I need to focus my life completely on Christ otherwise there really is no coping. I also know that if anyone reads this that has a much bigger set of stresses than I do they would be happy to have mine. I know this lot is not horrible. Father knows I get overwhelmed easily but I do know how much I have to be grateful for. 
At the moment Michael is loving Twilight. Something I love about him is when he decides he loves something he is 100% on board and fully immerses himself in learning all about it. He has been listening to the soundtrack, just finished the first book (audio), knows a lot about every member of the cast and ordered every DVD for less than $16 and is so happy about it! We have also been watching them every night together on our phones after the girls fall asleep. I love it!!!!! Love it. It's hilarious and awesome how excited he is about them now. Complete turn around from when he first watched them.

July 28, 2017
So today we took Sia in to HOPEFULLY get the rest of her spitz nevus out.  I told the doctor as kindly as I could that I never wanted to see his face again! He laughed, he understood.  Michael could not do it this time around so I had to step up and bear hug our daughter a second time while she took it like a champ! Bigger scar, 5 stitches but she did so great! I didn't let myself get emotional, I really had to take my mind out and just hold her.  Michael went to Trader Joes and bought us some black bean and sweet potato chips and for old times sake our dark chocolate peanut butter cups! YES! He also had some great news about settling a case when I climbed back into the car with Sia.  So it was bittersweet day!


July

I just love Chip and Jo
4th of July breakfast with Uncle Tom, Aunt Lily and Remi!
attempting kissing selfie on the 4th while he practices spanish
(weirdos)





LOTS of purging at my mom's house this month, results in:
lots of my childhood memories being brought home (dance costumes, puzzles, books etc.)
lots of snacking (wheat thins, oreos, peaches)
tired, hot babies
a very tired Aunt Lily at the end of the day, I'm sure 
(because she entertains, feeds and takes pictures of my babies all day as well as her sweet Remi boy!)
(we love you Aunt Lily!)





Gwinna turned 5.
Ugh AND yay! And ugh again.  I am so torn.  I love this little wild child more than all of the universes.  
She is also just AS WILD AS all of the universes combined!
 (whatever that means...my family knows.) 
 I am so happy she is healthy and growing and moving forward, yet it breaks me down too. 
That is all on that note for now.
She had a great day of celebrating with cousins and friends: 
cake, karaoke, pizza and presents. 
I love you my Gwinna girl, SO much.